Heaven and
Hell
Silence fills the
air,
as I sit, alone,
among endless rows of
graves.
I wish for
heartbeats,
for laughter,
for tears.
I miss the noise.
But I know that I can't have
it.
I can hear the footsteps of
the living,
but there's no sound for
me.
Silence surrounds
me,
as I lay in my own
void,
a void of life,
eternal and silent.
I will never know happiness
again.
But I accept it,
lying here, alone,
among endless rows of
graves.
It was fun being dead for a
while,
to feel the quiet
and the peace.
I thought hell would have fire
and brimstone,
but I guess that's only what
they tell us.
I'm moving on now,
accepting my
reality.
And I know that one
day,
I'll find my
meaning,
In the cold abyss.
But for now, all I have is
silence,
a silence that never
ends.
And I bet there's fire in
heaven.

Foolish
Understanding
The things I thought
unmeetableunattainableas if from Eden
Forever luring us with what
could never be pure in value as it might have been
Or so we've all been
told:
But why should my heart
believe it this for so?
This is what I know!
My dreams!
As clear as the words of my
own ears
Unencumbered by notions of
what I was or would be.
Just a child at that point in
time;
Unaware of the traps or
whims of foolish understanding.
Always trying, always
striving.
And now, standing here--where
was I standing before?
Redacted
Routine is the devil of a
stranger:
A death spell is different only in name.
18th century England--the rise of industrialisation,
the
first factory systemthe spilling out of a Satanic rage.
Alone, for I
sought you everywhere.
In Spain, at five paces away from me,
Your torso moving gracefully like a flower blooming
So
perfect you were; I should have found a way
to grasp the beauty in it:
To be with you was to be good, filled with God's love,
But in
that moment my heart dared leap out of my chest
In the
frantic-ness to make time stop for us... To make us both strong enough to last
eternally To love us amidst the world's fear of each other It is
not as easy as it seems...
It is enough that we are together.
You are here beside me. And that's enough.

Close To Me
It's lovely, the number of
times
you look down on me and forget to see,
as if from
your corner of the sea
You could not hear once I begin to
plead;
It takes a little time before you come,
To coax me back
again up to the dreams.
That there is no moon,
only we are
nearer the stars
I am but asleep. And yet, here we lie:
Far apart.
At some point I think to wake myself up,
To
make sure I haven't been lying,
And when finally I realize it's
true
I find myself so faint; Holding too tight; Too
cold.
I think it may be time for a change after all.
But as
things are todayor so it would seemI'll sleep here alone under the
covers awaiting you to come, more closely to me at last...