Stationary Figure
(after the painting by Philip Guston)
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bound in cotton, 800 thread count Egyptian, waiting to be
filled with natron and hot air, properly prepared for the voyage of a lifetime,
one way to the sun, without a ship or rudder, still smoking those cheap
cigarettes traded for bread and beer at the local bazaar, could have been
killed once a beggar in the streets but now matter, Mustafa had called me a
slug, I am no pharaoh watching the light bulb flicker in time to my pulse,
somewhere not here the universe, somewhere another time, a reason to sleep
Last Piece
(after the gouache painting by Philip Guston)
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the last of it, all of them, good riddance I thought,, too
many jars filled with stale air, my life like bugs crawling under the skin, how
wonderful they seemed (I banish you dark angels, as if I could) even now, even
now, I have come to the edge and still see them in the distance watching me
through glass eyes, a dying species, me or they, the last, the first, all the
same at the quantum ends of life, happy that I should never die again
Painter in Bed
(after the painting by Philip Guston)
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not as if it matters, he thinks to himself, dreaming of
newness, a new-born child on a white lily pad emerging from the sea, the way
Dalí would have seen his birth, reincarnation, redemption,
recomposition, how things turn to dreams and back like paranoiac gentlemen
having tea, Earl Gray, as they watch the ebb and flow of an invisible world, it
has come to this, the commonplace, the bed, a blank canvas, there is nothing
new in his endless sleep where Ernst is needed most, he dreams of urinals like
giraffes on fire while counting sheep